Week 1 Update - The Frustrating and Nonsensical Routine of JFong

I have been contemplating about the complexities of life and anything of such. I have tried to apply for some part-time jobs, but I have failed to get any so far. The idea of not earning money when I am young makes me feel like I am wasting my life. However, through daydreaming and nonsensical thinking, I am forming some ideas for some "short stories" in the future, but I will most likely be too busy with university to formulate a good enough story. If I do start writing it, I will probably just start off with a basic premise and writing slowly whenever I have time during the week.

There also has been a Twitch anime stream where I watched some decent anime - most notably ReLIFE. One of my friends recommended me since last year, but I was in a period where I was predominantly gaming rather than watching anime. I used to watch a lot of anime and reading manga. For me, these indulgences can sometimes control too much of my life, and that's why I have to force myself to take a break from it. I used to have a lot of self-confidence and self-control when I was in school, but after several incidents that have affected my drive and determination for which I will not name, I have begun to slack off and delve back into such indulgences. Back then, I disregarded the idea of "stress" and "depression", thinking it was just people being weak, but little did I know that I would suffer such things. I personally have lost a lot of my motivation due to several failures, as well constantly being exposed to excellent and amazing people. One can say that I am just a lazy person who doesn't bother to try, and I have to agree with that, but the current problem with me is that I am lost, unsure of what the "real world" is like, my passion, my career aspirations....

That's why I have been trying to escape reality by watching anime, hoping to gain some happiness from watching it, and some of them have changed my perception of life (honestly). I am hoping to create some Hearthstone videos when the new expansion comes out, and I am struggling to create some anime videos for YouTube. I have tried to recreate anime snippets that always go viral, but it has never happened for me but I am still persevering through it. I also have tried to advertise myself as a tutor so I can hopefully get some business soon before I get too busy. Like I said, this blog generally allow myself to waffle on about my own life and perhaps some other people can relate to this too.

I hope to continue to writing these posts.