Week 3 Update - Enjoying Life?

My mood has been much better recently, which is a comparable contrast to the previous two weeks. However, I feel uneasy about my current position in life, but for now, I am trying to make the most of my time. I always ponder about what is everyone's life purpose, and the general answer is just achieve happiness. What strike me the most was my Dad's opinion of this life question. His response was not what's life purpose is, but how we achieved it, and what we were willing to do to achieve it. His words somewhat inspired me to try my best to do well in my studies when I switch courses.

I always wonder whether other individuals in my generation also ponder such things. There are always two sides to the coin - one side is seeing all of the people who are extremely initiative and have a goal they are desperately wanting to achieve, and the other side is seeing the people who just pay to go to university to have fun? The latter is what surprises and intrigues me to this very day; how could people just have such a carefree life, and I think I was somewhat influenced by these people. My self-confidence and self-esteem have dramatically decreased compared to when I was in the peak of high school. There were multiple possible factors that accumulated in my downfall (most of which I will not disclose). 

Nevertheless, I am trying to build back my self-esteem through little things like making blog posts like these and Youtube videos to see whether I can reach out to people/satisfy them. Until then, I wish you all well and hope everyone can achieve their dreams.