Week 7 Review - Becoming the Person I Lament

My parents has always taught me the importance of working hard and working smart, and I have always done it through my high school years. But as I reached university level, I started to lose motivation, a vision, and most important of all, my attitude towards study. During my first year, I worked as hard as I would during high school, but come second year, I started losing focus and thus my grades started slipping.I believe that this is due to several reasons. 

One possible reason is a health issue - my lymph nodes have been swollen since the second year of university. I have went to doctors to have a blood test and scans, but my doctor assured me that I have nothing to worry about. However, my lymph node is still swollen and has not reduced in size. My ability to focus has dwindled because I am lacking energy, but I will probably book an appointment with another doctor to get a second opinion. (Doctors can make misdiagnosis too).

Another possible reason is my lack of vision. Since I don't have a "goal" of what I want to become when I grow up, I am stuck and drifting nowhere. It may sound childish but I still can't clearly see what I want to become even though I spent two years in university. I also don't really have a role model to look up to, except my cousins. As a result, I feel demotivated and not dedicate 100% of my focus on studies.

A third reason is my newly acquired "addiction" to entertainment. Even in high school, I always played games and watch anime & manga when I have free time, instead of dedicating it to developing more useful skills. I regret some parts of it, but I also believed some parts of my "bad habits" were not too bad either. 

I guess all these factors affects each other, creating a "butterfly-effect", and amassing all this negativity onto myself. I hope I can become a better person when I switch courses, because I have almost no other chance to stray from this new path.